Early, pre dawn on Tuesday. A quiet house. The nights are warming and the fire, attractive as ever, isn't the savior it had been a month ago when night temps hit the teens. Cat is quiet, fire glows without crackling and even the cancer inside seeems quieted. I began a new chemo cocktail last week, has been keeping me tired, fatigued, sedated on the various chairs/couches in the living room. Also started new meds for pain and the drugs are working and that adds more to my overall body weakness but does away with most of my belly pains and aches. Fatique and sleep come as they wish, I might be watching a dvd and doze off, might be in deep conversation with a friend and doze off, might be on the cell, "hello, how's Marcus?" "oh,ok," and zonk, dozing again. Don't be put off if this happens to you, it's just my drugs running my this exterior, conscience life.
What is running my interior life, would be our friends and family and people about town who share time and send gifts, cards and wishes. With the totality of wishes for better health and prayers for intervention for me, I should logically live another 247 years! So, I accept all wishes and prayers even if I doubt I'll be blogging in the year 2255. But hey, that's a lot of sunrises. Sunrises coming up in March include a couple of musical benefits, Patty and friends are thawing out the frozen midwest for a renunion benefit in Cedar Rapids on March 8th I think, and the next weekend Grand Canyon friends are organizing a night of music at the canyon. holy-moly, good golly miss molly, rock n' roll music is a great motive to keep smiling and keep fighting this dumb-dumb disease. Now if only I could get any early contact with Janice, SRV, Jimi and Jim Morrison to show up it'd be historic.
Some people to thank most recently: Sista' Emily visited here dispite snow and other sorrows, and then, while I'm in the tub, Norma shows up "SURPRISE", Dan-oh and Bob-oh catch us in Flag, Laura and Terri and Annne take Pegg-0 for nice dining, away from the sick guy. Mandy employs my talent with her successful redition of "Chapter House Rock" with her school kids theater group, Chas my daily cell phone guy, Wes for coming soon to catch the biggest Feb. striper, just like last month. Jules with unlimited love and caring, first thing in the morning. I loved your images of planting hopes for me in your garden of love/life, friends from town, who bring us food and laughter(Bradshaw's).
And, not forget, Miss Mandy is off to advetureland for her grad. gift = Peru, for unlimited travel and good times, enjoy all the South American sunrises and sunsets for me. I love you. Thankful over and over am I for the positive messages and blog notes back to me. Also, ever grateful for the next sunrise, even an icky-blues-in-the-gut day is a day worth paying attention to, there is beauty within each day.
Coming soon, more dinners from friends (Keislings and Barry family), Jules and Paul travel here late next week, Wesley Tanner will arrive this Friday for fishing and father/son time.
Comming soon, more sunrises, earlier each day with the sun driving northward towards spring and the blooom of desert trees and plants vivid with gold, yellow, ruby, lime green and rose blossoms.
Coming soon, countless moments within me, within us all, when we realize how fortunate we've been to see how much how deeply we care for each other.
Enjoy your moments. I am.
Love and Laughter, Marcus
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Nice, nice - to see the new entry..
Yes, The Sun Also Rises, - here- earlier with each passing day. 6:30now and I SEE THE LIGHT - through that Sonoma County Fog.
As I begin another day - chasing the bulls - I wish you well in the Land of the Lizards - And don't we all wish you were Romero and you could slay the "cancer bull" and present the "bladder ear" to Peggy -O- and ride off to Madrid to encounter thousands and thousand of more sunrises.. Yes, that is my wish: Chas
It would be fantastic if Jim Morrison showed up...however, that may prevent me from returning home and I do not think my boss would appreciate that. Hugs and kisses to all the Furhman's, especially Frandy who will be having the time of her life in Peru very soon (jealous). See you soon. Love Nic Nic.
To everyone:
For love of Marcus, the thing is-
Marcus Fuhrman Benefit Concert/Love Fest Fundraiser
2:00 CST Sat. March 8
Faith United Methodist Church
Cedar Rapids, Iowa
With music of Glen Lonsdale, Waubeek Trackers (my old band), Black Sheep (my newish band)
Send cards and/or donations to the address below if you want to be present but can't attend. We will display the cards at the concert.
Mail cards/donations to:
Mount Vernon Bank and Trust
"Marcus Fuhrman Benefit"
PO Box 188
Mount Vernon, IA 52314
Telephone 319/895-8835
Marcus, I so wish you could be here, but you will be carrying the day spiritually, don't doubt. Peg, I'm talking now "take Thursday afternoon off" so I'll see you at my house.
The church house will rock! Thanks, friends, family of Marcus, my dear bro in law.
Virtual hugs all around!
love,
Patty
319/895-6518
Say hi to Navajo Mountain in the mornings with crackling fire and cat. Even though winter's bound to slip away EVENTUALLY, I'll still be warm with memories of Christmas with you all. Jules and Paul, I treasure our Ankrum Family Christmas Book!
Remember: old church ladies are praying for you.
Off to work, more later,love,
Pattyo
Wait a minute...am I an old church lady now that I work at the church? I will enlist the Methodists and the Baptists, we will have all spiritual bases covered!!
Snow here and more cold, although the 14 degrees this morning felt warm, I wore a lighter jacket. Linda is venturing north for a week of family time. Haven't really seen her much since Adam's wedding.
We are planning a "Lindenstock" for the weekend after the 4th of July at our 24 acres just south of Linden, Iowa. We are right on the river so plan bands, camping, river riding, food, fireworks, and somemores. We did it last year on a mini scale and it was so fun we decided to make it an annual event. More details to follow. March 8 is my dad, Sterling's, birthday...how great to remember him on a day we will be together. Better run, speaking of church ladies, the ladies Bible study should arrive here at the church soon. Average age- 85. And they all drive...good thing we have a huge parking lot.
I am sending warm hugs (and that isn't easy in MN these days) and hope that the new chemo does the same!
Love to you all,
Sue
Hey Marcusman, I want to get my hands on that bunny blaster, we eyeballed that gun for months...so glad you're enjoying it, I love you always. Let's get together and shoot, yeehaw!
Can't think of anything clever to say on this snow covered Colorado day.
I send you a Valentine wish from my myself and the four lovely ladies in my life.
Looking forward to seeing you soon.
Love KJ
Hi Marcus!
Happy Valentine's on this overcast and wintry day. Hope you are staying warm.
Love,
Stacey
Oh, how I love your words. Tears do come but still I read and read...your words a gift to me, to my heart. I can tell how much the drugs/meds are zapping strength as they also keep you more pain free. Always walking the balance. Valentine's Day...a day of love for all. Pk called so our love traveled the wires, called you and more love across the wires, call to Mom and left a love note for her to hear later. Yes, you do make us all realize the value of each day, holding onto those we love.
And, I bought more flowers for the garden this afternoon, a Valentine's Day gift to myself and much more hope planted in my garden for you.
I hope you got the photo I emailed from my classroom of my little 2nd graders today. The fun of watching them all dressed up at the Tea Party made the day so special. Hard to believe that it's been so many years since Mandy and Wes were that age. Now she's heading off for the beauty of Machu Pichu and Peru. Wes married...where did our years go, Marcus? It's all gone too quickly. I need a replay button for life., though not sure where I'd stop it. Since that's not an option I wish you another beautiful sunrise and a wonderful 4 days of time with that Wesman. Talk with you manana.
hugs, kisses and tons of love,
Julie
Happy Day-After-Love-Day!
(Wait, isn't every day love day?)
Love from the chilly and rainy low desert...
Cindy
I've got to learn to read your blog in places I feel ok crying in. I'm learning to appreciate this particular aspect of my femininity though.
I read about your "pain experience" (that's a little nurse speak for you) and think about all the little ones to whom I give pain medication while at clinical. I love the days at the hospital where I work with a kid who is usually healthy and hit a bump, not a kid whose whole young life has been marred by illness and hospitals and can't see a white coat without screaming.
I think I became a nurse because sickness sucks, and I would like to lessen the amount of suffering it could cause whenever possible. Still when it shows up in my own little world I stare it like a cockroach I found in the cupboard. "where did you come from? What am I going to do with you? Are there more of you lurking in there?" I'm afraid to look.
I hope you are enjoying having Wes there. I know I miss having him here and it's only been a day! He's a good tea maker (and drinker), and makes killer enchiladas and popcorn. Keep him in good huggable condition though- that's one of his best features! Hope you boys are having fun and foot massages. Love you both!
Alena
Hello everyone! I{m in LIMA and I love it! What a busy place, lots going on everywhere. These computers are a little hard to use so pardon the punctuation. It is hot here and the city really becomes a part of you because it all sticks to your skin. I went to the Anthropology Museum today and saw a lot of stuff that I{ve only read about it books, it was great. Breakfast was $2 for a huge fresh fruit bowl and coffee, with turtles crawling around on the floor. Hope you are having a great time with Wes out on the boat if possible!! This trip is already so incredible day one THANK YOU SO MUCH, best present ever is an experience for sure. Much love to everyone, especailly Brian. Oh yeah, and my spanish is holding up, nothing like a crash course!
xoxo
Mandy
Hi there, as the sun rises and sets over the casinos of Vegas. Mandy, I am so glad you are having fun in Peru. It was a great night and sunset when you were here and we did have a great Valentine's date, didn't we? Thank-you for staying with me, I enjoyed it soo much. Marcus, I haven't gotten my gun yet but will soon be shopping around. That was so fun shooting that bird. Everytime I think of it I laugh.
You sound so good today and I am glad that Wes is there with you and hope you can go out on the lake and have some fun.
I am going to be diving in Curacao when the benefit at the canyon is going on, but I will be there in spirit, while my body will be floating below the surface of the ocean. I am beginning to look forward to my trip, so that is a good healing thing for me.
love and kisses to all of you, Normie
Hello from Laura's sister in Maryland. She sent me your blog site and I've enjoyed reading the messages.
I have to tell you that most of our mornings normally start with the cat scratching at the bedroom door around 4:30am. After all - why should she wait until we get up at 5:00am to be fed? Ask Laura who owned the cat first. I do get to see the sun rise on the drive to work - the incredible colors and beauty never cease to amaze me. Morning is my favorite time of the day.
Family and friends are the most incredible gift anyone can have - keep them close to your heart. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Love,
Shea
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